When does quarter-life crisis starts? I mean, how old do you need to be to start feeling the effects of it and, furthermore, what are such effects?
The reason I am asking all this is because, even though I am barely on my 26th, I think –I just have that impression– that I am slowly, but at a very fast pace (talk about paradox here!), moving into my own version of mid-life crisis. I want to think it is version 1.0. Now, how many versions and for how long?
Wots goin on with me? Hmm, hard to explain, especially without getting into trouble. Let’s say that I feel the urge to travel to exotic places and meet new people, just like I used to meet them when I was a student, so long ago. I have a strong urge to have a home and family. I wanna explore the world. I want to have summer vacation and njoy it @ my nanny’ place. I wanna play all the games I used to play when I was a kid…I wanna rule my life the way I want it…”I want to live…” It is interesting, because I would, truthfully, like to do all of the above.
I feel like getting away from everything that produces an electrical shock at times; I feel like going back to a more primitive, so to speak, kind of life…grow red chilli and carrots…I used to do this when I was a kid…painting on canvas atop a steep hill..watch the city from the summit…..don’t feel like presenting myself ONLY on this sophisticated professional platform. I wanna be a mix of different professions…naah..not professions..but roles n skills…..painter…trader…writer…teacher…wife…mother who knows who else… and yes me myself. Didn’t I say it was hard to explain? I see people even me for that matter chasing whatever it is they think will bring them a sense of peace, security and happiness. But no-one ever stops to recognise the treasure in their own pocket. Its really tough to control this quest n desire for “happiness”.
I’ve caught myself thinking, what if? Finding every twist of the road I could have taken, totally different or parallel to where I ‘m now. Perhaps on each of them I would be feelin like I ‘m right now, perhaps not. I’ll never know. Whether I can form a judicious combination of everything I wish…or lifez gonna be monotonous for me?
I sure hope this stage moves on quickly. It is keeping a bitter taste on my mouth, sort of.
